March 9, 2016

Learning to be less.

This year at my church, we are doing a top to bottom, deeper study of the Bible. This past Sunday, we started talking about the Ten Commandments. We all know the list, and we all think we do a pretty good job at keeping them (at least speaking from my personal perspective). We talked about the first two and how we are to have no other gods, no other idols. In the beginning of the sermon, Im sitting there thinking to myself that this was a no brainer, that I was doing just fine in the "keeping the commandments" game. But as our pastor kept speaking...I started to feel a really deep tug in my heart which brought me to the realization that maybe I do have idols before the Lord. Talk about a "sinking down in the chair" moment.
We all live a life where time controls A lot. We have to be at work at this time, the gym at that time, dinner with our friends here and there. Speaking from personal experience, time is something that really controls every aspect of my life.
Since January, I have been doing a bible study with my women's group called The Armor of God by Priscilla Shirer. Yall, go get your girlfriends, and go do this study. Priscilla is on fire! 
If I have learned anything in this study, it has been to be SO intentional with the Lord. To spend time in prayer, long times, not just those quick "before dinner" prayers. I have learned to put HIM first, not my time, not my husband, not my family or friends. But the One who matters above all.
Time is my idol. Time is what blocks me the most from keeping the Lord first. More time of sleeping is what tells me to hit the snooze rather than getting up an hour earlier to be slow with my Provider. Time is what tells me to rush to work and to not open my Bible at all. Time is what tells me to get dinner started before Sean comes home and that having a meal on the table makes me more of a perfect wife than going to the One who tells me how to be a loving and faithful wife. Whew, getting heated yall. A certain time is what tells me to get to bed so I can get back to work tomorrow.
But I am the one who controls what time tells me. I am the one allowing time to be an idol.
Ive always admired Sean saying "the brakes are always on our side." Jesus is waiting for us to come to him, but it is our choice to give our all, which includes our full hearts, full minds, money, time....I know it seems like such an obvious issue, but sometimes the simple things are overlooked the most.
When running across the new Bethel album a few weeks ago, this song below had me in TEARS yall. Sean and I have really been talking about giving the Lord our all and between our conversations, the bible study, our sermon series and this song, I have felt more convicted and have seen my faults more clearly.
I am so grateful that the Lord is full of abundant grace, everlasting love..and when I fail, he simply picks me up again to correct me in all that love and grace.

"He must become greater; I must become less”
John 3:30 

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